Why does it keep happening to me 😭

This is my third miscarriage this year. Why me? Why does it keep happening? How much more can I take.

Each one has ended in heartbreak but we thought things were going to be different this time. 3rd time Lucky and all of that.

We had a party yesterday to celebrate our engagement. I even said to my partner if it happens it will happen on that day.

Well sure enough, bam. Bleeding starts. We have to end the party and go to hospital. They can’t book me in for a scan until Wednesday. A whole two days of waiting 😢

Iv been so strong the last two times, carried on as normal looking after our 20 month old son and tried to not let the heartbreak get to me. Now all I feel I can do is cry.

Cry because it’s happening again and I don’t know how much more I can take of this.