Having a hard time today

I’m quickly approaching the due date for my first pregnancy which ended at 8 weeks. I found out yesterday that I’m miscarrying my second pregnancy this year, and woke up at 4am to horrible cramping and light bleeding. Between the two, I’m having a hard time coping. I run an in-home daycare, which means I can’t call out of work— too many people relying on me alone. So not only is today already an awful, painful day, but I have to spend it taking care of other people’s beautiful babies. My husband offered to call in today and keep me company, but like an idiot I told him to go in to work. I should have kept him here with me.

Sorry for the vent, ladies. I don’t know who to turn to because miscarriage isn’t something that happens in my family— except to me. I’m one of 7 children, no losses. My oldest sister has 6 children, no losses. 3 of my other siblings have 3 each, no losses. They don’t quite get it. They’re sympathetic, but it’s not the same as talking to someone who understands.