Dear baby girl..

I don’t yet know your name and I haven’t yet met you. But just the simplicity of your kicks and movements has brought me to this world of complete comfort. I am raising you alone and i am only 18. I am scared to death but the love i feel for you has overpowered any negatives i may see. Carrying you these last 7 months has been hard, but it has also been the most rewarding and eye opening experience I have EVER gone through. I love growing you angel. I love knowing that i made you and you are all mine. I think about you for a split second and catch myself crying. Pure joy and happiness. I realized i have my 4D US next week and i cried because i get to see you. I feel or see you kick and i cry because those kicks are the best feeling in the world. I take out your clothes and just stare at them because i am so excited to meet you. I want to scream out and tell the world i am your mommy because i am already so so proud of you. I cant wait to raise you to be the best woman you could possibly be. I hope you don’t end up resenting me due to the decision i made regarding your father. He was an evil, abusive, mentally ill, manipulative man but of course i will never tell you that. I will let you make up the perfect image of him in your head and you will love him as every little girl should love her father.. & i pray to god i don’t get the backlash from that one day because you don’t know the complete truth.. i hope i can be the best possible version of myself for you my love. I hope you look at me in awe past childhood. I hope we will be close and connected and i hope I’m the first person you run to when you don’t know what to do. However the outcome, i will do my best to be the best. And for now i am just focused on loving you little one. I feel so blessed to have made such a perfect little human. That may be biased but you are the most perfect baby girl in my eyes. Religion was something i used to laugh at. Now i thank god every day for this wonderful gift.. i have been blessed with the best and because of that i know there is a god. YOU are the reason i was born baby girl. I was brought here to be your mama and i am so grateful for that. I feel like nobody can understand how i am feeling and how lucky i am to have you.. but i know all of you reading this do. November mamas excuse me if i am a little emotional right now but we have the most precious gifts. And i feel so connected to all of you because most of my support this pregnancy has come from this group.. i love y’all💗 heres my angel back at 24 weeks!! I have such a beautiful girl😻😻