Ugh...

I feel like my boyfriend is so unappreciative. Last night I put my older daughter to bed at 9:30 as school is getting ready to start. I put her to bed early and she does everything to stay awake. I ended up falling asleep in her bed for about an hour with her. Then, I come back into my bed with my boyfriend just sleeping away as I realize it feeding time for my little one. I go get her bottle and heat it and change her and feed her as he's still sleeping. She wanted to lay with mommy last night and not sleep. How could I say no to that beautiful face, so, I snuggle her up until she falls asleep. We do this again at 4am. Then at 6:18 my SO wakes me up trying to have sex with me and I'm just not going for it as I'm bleeding again and have been off and on for the past 7 weeks (my LO is 7w old today). He throws a little tepmer tantrum and asked me if I was going to make his lunch and coffee for work (something I do every day). I go make his coffee abd lunch as I'm slamming things becasue I'm tired mad and feeling unappreciated. I look in his lunchbox to fina half eaten sandwhich from yesterday. Are you effing kidding me? I wake up every morning to do this and he can't even eat his sandwhich. And before anyone says anything like maybe he doesn't have time, he does becasue he texts me and calls me on his lunch everyday. He is still in bed while I'm making his lunch and coffee for him to come in the kitchen and ask me why I'm mad. So I tell him I wake up early every morning and do this for him and he can't even eat his whole sandwhich not to mention he laid in bed after waking me up for another 15 minutes he could have made his own damn lunch. After explaing to him why I'm mad he takes everything out of his lunch box and puts it in the fridge. I got the stuff I needed and marched my happy ass upstairs and didn't say 2 words to him. Left him a note on the counter that said drive sace I love you. Haven't looked to see if he took his lunch or not. Just becasue I'm mad doesn't mean that I don't care.