Feeling jealous

I’m feeling so jealous of women who have normal pregnancies. Cholestasis has completely ruined my pregnancy for me. The itching has been torture for the majority of my pregnancy to the point where it’s a constant thing I have to deal with day and night. I just wish I could have enjoyed being pregnant. I know there’s worse things. But I just feel sad because I hated being pregnant and I’ve got 2 weeks left until I am being induced and I just can’t wait for it to be over 😞 it scares me to ever have another pregnancy again.