It’s fuck this life

I’ve been so depressed lately I feel stuck in pause. Don’t nobody care to make sure I’m straight anymore I feel out of place and no one gets excited to see me anymore. I annoy everyone and I’m not beautiful anymore. I’m trying to take care of myself but honestly it’s been harder to wake up every morning. Sometimes I wish I didn’t. God won’t hear my prayers I asked him for guidance to get better but I’ve been getting worse. I just wanna cry and sleep all day.