Needing support

Staci • 💙 Baby Boy 1/5/2020 💙 Baby Boy 1/21/2022

My husband and I have been ttc since may. We finally got the bfp in July only to miscarry in August. I got my HCG back to 0 and then one week later got my positive OPK. Now I'm waiting for AF, and it should be here anytime between now and Tuesday, according to all my apps. Obviously I have never miscarried before so I don't know when it will actually show. We tried our best to get that bfp this month but this morning I took a First response and it's bfn. It could still be too early test (idk since I'm just going off the apps predicted date due to the MC) but if I'm being honest I just don't think it's gonna happen this month. And of course it's a new level of disappointment seeing the bfn right after my MC. My husband doesn't get why I am so upset because in his mind it's not a big deal because we can try again. I know we can try again but I wanted the one we had and that didn't happen and now if I do get AF it will be like a slap in the face. My mom thinks I need to seek help because I should be handling it better than I am. I think I'm just grieving, I mean we saw the heartbeat the day I MC it was real for me. So like I said I need a little support since my system here isnt helping