Depression

I have been a bigger girl all my life and have suffered from depression because of it. When I was about 16 it got really bad I stoped eating and started passing out because of it. It did eventually get better I lost 80 pounds and was happy with my self. Now I’m 15 weeks pregnant with a little boy and my stumic has grown a lot. The strange thing is according to the scale I’m loading weight. I know it’s normal for my stumic to grow because of the baby but I can’t stop the thoughts like I got when I was younger. I’m now starting to notice I skip meals. I know it’s not good for me r my little boy but I don’t mean to. I would do anything for my baby. Me and my husband tried for a year due to me havering pcos. My husband is very supportive he keeps calling me beautiful but that’s not how I feel and I find my self crying about it a lot. Is there any other moms with this problem with advise. Pleas don’t judge me.