I’m pregnant 🤗 with my rainbow 🌈 baby 👶🏽 but it’s been a difficult situation 😕💔

My husband and I only been married for about 4 months. But I just recently found out he’s been cheating on me for a while now and the other woman is also pregnant and is due in December. I’ve kicked him out since I found this out I also asked for a divorce and I haven’t spoken with him since. I did ask for him to go half with me on an abortion at the moment I was pissed and hurt because this pregnancy was a blessing but at the time I didn’t feel that way. But I reconsidered it and if I have to take care of this baby by myself so be it. Ive been depressed lately and it’s really taking a toll on me and my other son who is one. I’ve been trying to stay positive but it’s hard when you are trying to keep it together and not let anyone see you cry or hurt. I’ve been having to take on all the responsibilities bills,parenting and so on. He hasn’t contacted me to ever ask how the baby is doing or nothing. I heard my baby heart beat and I almost cried I seen my lil bean and it’s really making me step my game up for not just my kids but myself also. Because deep down I feel like a failure as a mom.