Anyone ever felt like this?

Tonight I laid in bed and couldn’t breath I was crying so hard.

I’m 16 and I’m not trying to get pregnant in fact I’m on birth control. But I’ve been having pregnancy symptoms so I took a couple tests and when they came back negative it hurt because although I knew it would have been hard I had already thought about it and settlers into the idea. After seeing the tests I realized how badly I actually wanted them to be positive.

I don’t want to be shamed for the way I feel or be told that I’m sixteen so I should be happy I didn’t ruin my life(I’ve already been told that a million times and I know it’s true). I just want to know that literally anyone else has felt this way.