Complusions.

This past few months have not been easy for me. I haven’t been diagnosed with ocd by a doctor. Since I was 14 I have had irrational thoughts and obessive complusions when living my normal life. Tonight I almost broke down. I’m so fed up with not being able to control my mind and the intrusive thoughts I have. Not to mention the stress I have from other problems exacerbate my problem. I live in NYC. I currently quit my job due to my problem and other nonsense. I’m on the verge of having a panic attack and crying. The past few days I’ve noticed I have started to shake or my hands tremble. It’s so disturbing and scary to know that I am feeling so sick. As if I were chained to my own body without any help. I’m trying to find support groups or therapist in the area of Manhattan. I have been to planned parenthood and spoke to a counsler, but she gave me info I could easily find online. If anyone could please help me. Or someone with the similar condition know where to find help. It sounds so melodramatic, but I feel this stress and over extertion cause if my daily rituals/routine are causing damage to my health. Especially my heart with this amount of stress. Yes I’m young healthy woman, but this isn’t a joke. My health is very important and I have brushing it off in hopes of it getting better. I’m emotionslly and physically exhausted. I need help today.