I just want this fucking thing outta me

I’m like really starting to hate this thing more and more I’m never getting it ever I’ve been to several doctors who couldn’t find my strings mind you yes I’m Plus size I’ve even been to the hospital they did a cat scan it’s there but they never told me if it’s in correctly or anything and they wouldn’t remove it surgically they tried the regular way no luck me and my husband are really trying for a baby but he thinks I’ve been got it removed but I haven’t told him it’s still there ( long story) we’ve been trying hard I’ve been feeling pregnancy symptoms but I know I can’t be have a doctors appointment October 4 for another try at getting this thing out I just want them to get it idc how