Idk why

I just wanna curl up into a ball and die. Like I don’t see a point of being alive. What’s the point. I’m going to heaven anyways. school has me stressed out cuz I’m not doing all of the work I’m supposed to be doing ( I’m homeschooled) I feel like once I go to college or even high school next year it’s gonna be terrible cuz I’m not learning anything like I am terrible at retaining information. I don’t think I’m stupid but I just want to die and skip life. I know that’s sounds weird but idk. I just don’t see the point like I’m going to heaven I accepted Christ and whatever so I don’t get why I have to suffer on this earth. It’s basically suffering I cry every time I sin or realize that I have sinned. I don’t know if that makes me a good person or a bad one. I just don’t want to do it anymore. I’m not going to do anything, I’m just going to continue to suffer on the earth. I just don’t get the point, Ik everyone has a purpose but I’m not going to spread the gospel or anything. I’m basically useless. I’m not going to change the world at all. I’m just going to keep sinning and crying about it. I only get sad when I’m alone and feel like this when I’m alone but I don’t always want to be around people. I just need to rant. I’ve never done this before and so far it feels good to get it all out in the open even if I post this anonymously. Thanks for reading all of that. Btw I’m not having suicidal thoughts or anything so you don’t have to worry about that.