So, last night I had a mental breakdown. My little guy is now 6 days old. He's barely taken a break from the boob since he got his first taste. He constantly is on my boobs. He will hardly let me put him down. He falls asleep at the boob. In the mornings and early afternoon, there are maybe 2 times I can put him down for a long period of time. Here's what our log looks like.

There is missing information in huge gaps because I was so exhausted, couldn't put it in, or his appointment. I've logged every wet or poopy diaper.

I don't think he's getting enough milk. I was engorged yesterday. Then my mother in law did a lymphedema massage on me to help the swelling in my legs and feet, and the engorgement went away. My boobs went soft 😭. If I massage and push on my breast I can see some milk come out. I got frustrated with myself because he lost 13 ounces, we have to go tomorrow for a weight check. I'm worried he isn't going to gain anything. I'm worried about the amount of diapers. I'm worried i'm not making any milk! He's currently attached to my boob. I've barely slept. I tried the portable bassinet in the bed (he was born via cesarean i'm still having trouble getting in and out of bed). He won't stay asleep but 5 minutes in it. I'm worried his dad is upset because he hardly gets to hold him, and the only bonding they get are diaper changes, swaddling, and if I have to pee. I'm worried about his diaper output. I'm just worried I don't make enough.

I don't know what to do. I plan on going to the breastfeeding clinic tomorrow. But is it normal for him to be on my boob constantly? No one's been able to hold him. Please forgive me, its hard to type while feeding.