Tired

Had to go home from work today, I was on the bathroom floor at the school I work at. Holding back tears and trying to breathe through the pain and not puke. It’s so embarrassing as faculty members walk in and ask if I’m alright, I’m not. And they ask if there’s anything they can do, and there isn’t. “Have you talked to your doctor?”

Yes. I’m taking medication but it doesn’t always stop this.

It’s almost worse when you’re late because you don’t have time to prepare for when it hits. Then suddenly you’re at work and doubled over in the bathroom ready to pass out.

I needed those hours, I have to pay my bills, but instead I just bleed and cry and pray it’ll stop. I don’t want this anymore, I want to live my life and be successful.