Virginity

So I’ve recently been having a hard time dealing with this with my partner because we had a discussion about our first times and losing our virginities, I’m 22, I lost my virginity 9th grade, over the years I’ve thought about this a lot and I just don’t remember my first time at all, I don’t remember any of it, I remember being out with my friends smoking drinking doing normal things teenagers do I suppose then waking up in a guys bed the next day, but I don’t remember anything sex wise, not one bit of it. I remember getting in the guys bed but after that, it’s just blank