Sexually frustrated, then and now...

So for months I was trying to have sex with my bf again. (It happened once and didn’t end well for me). After I told him how I felt after he seemed totally turned off by the idea and a few months later he ended things.

I have been so sexually frustrated because I have wanted some then and now and now it’s really not gonna happen. Booty calls aren’t something either of us want. (We did stay friends btw after the breakup)

And I tried just pleasing myself and eh. It worked but it’s not what want.

Any other thoughts or ideas??