Postpartum Thoughts

It’s been one week since sweet baby Violet made her way into our world. Postpartum has so many layers this time around. I am equally grateful, exhausted, overwhelmed, consumed with joy and filled with doubt. I know my hormones play a huge part in this - as well as lack of sleep. I know things will change with each passing day and some days will be easier than others. I know the adjustment of taking care of two little girls will take some time and I may never feel like I have it under control. Regardless of knowing this - I also recognize it’s okay to feel deeply during this phase of life and celebrate whatever may come.

My heart aches with a love so big it sometimes feels like it could break me in half. Simultaneously I see the old me drifting further away- who I once was, both physically and mentally- is fading further into the distance. I wouldn’t change this for anything, but there are moments I long for the ease of only having to care for my body and my feelings. I know my old self and my passions are still accessible - if just temporarily pushed back to make room for motherhood once again.

I will continue to seek balance in caring and loving for myself as much as my family. You can’t fill from an empty cup and I must remind myself of this.

// I am giving myself permission to feel it all without shame. // 💜