Feel like that girl

Feel like the girl that just gets talked to, no first date to doesn't go past the 1st date. Or if I do, I don't get the holiday treatment of meeting family or the vday love. Maybe this dating thing isn't for me. I would love to have a husband in the future, a bestfriend who wouldn't mind taking me as his future wife. My last boyfriend and the one before, never let memeet his family and both of these relationships were over 4 years. Just got the simple I love you and that's kinda just it, until I was put back in rhe friend zone without notice. Yet we did everything couples did. Felt stupid!!! Felt wasted, used, not good enough. Guess I'm just a home girl, who's a hopeless romantic. I don't have any kids or pets. Currently 29 and still trying to better myself and finish school for my career. I work, I don't sIeep around with multiple men, I don't party nor drink. I've always been the one to get cheated on. Guess that makes me boring. I no longer have any friends, so it's just me. Feel like I'm too much of a good girl, too damn sweet, who wish she was different.

*I don't look, I'm not on social media. It'll be guys I run into when I'm out. I nerdy bookworm guys, guys who are in school or working.I don't mention marriage. I don't date from work.

*I do completely opposite of me, I've had the mama's boy, the baby mama drama, the jailbird, the musician, the Military man, the nerd like me, the narcissist, the good, bad and ugly, the one who isn't wanting a relationship(he just a f*ck buddy, I left), the one who kept saying he was a good guy all the time, but was hella mean to me and controlling, the undecisive career, undecisive college major