Feeling blue

So of course I’m sitting here feeling blue as I await these next couple days to see if my monthly friend comes.

We keep trying to evict her for 9 months but every month she just keeps coming back.

My first child, I got pregnant so easy. Now she’s 11 and for the past 5 years, I can’t manage to get pregnant. (Mind you I’ve only been actively trying for a year. We just haven’t used protection in the past 5 years.)