Fear of the unknown...

In January I miscarried our first little bean... although emotional, I think I handled it pretty well and understood it happens more often than I once thought... fast forward to October. I found out I was pregnant with the help

Of clomid & we were over the moon! Hcg being closely monitored and everything looked good.... until it didn’t 😢.. up, down, up, down... and finally an ultrasound confirmed the fear of everyone... this bean was in my right tube- a confirmed ectopic pregnancy. Heart shattered! 💔 had methotrexate (2 shots) last Monday and now I sit in the waiting room and wait for “what comes next” and it’s absolutely terrifying. I want this chapter to close and start on a better one with a happier ending... so incredibly bad!

Just scared and needed to vent.