Getting distant.. Can't think straight

So its festive season here, n bcs all his frnds lived out of town had come back. Cuz we are in a LDR, we would talk most of the time se got. But now, he is busy with his frnds lately, all frnds are male. And here, m not having any frnds to look forward to, and it hurts like hell when m lonely. It kills me when m alone. I cannot do anything and this anxiety is killing me to the core. I never want him to feel like that I am not happy when he is with his frnds so if it happens like when I call n he is with frnds I ask him to be there, laugh n cut the call. But after that, it hurts me so much, its like a stab on my chest. Also, these days m getting these dreams like he is cheating on me...

I am not talking to him from yesterday's noon... M kind of mad at him.. Frustrated, emotionally and sexually...

I want him to be with me.. I want him to meet me...

He says that he's coming n so, but everytime something happens n he won't come. When I question, he says that you only want sex n things.. I have even stopped asking to meet.

But m really getting frustrated all over this, him not coming, not talking, these dreams, anxiety, loneliness. Its like I can't bear it anymore..

I seriously need some advice or else I might die of this anxiety..

Also m having PTSD(post trauma stress disorder) as I met an accident with truck while driving few days ago. It ain't really helping me either...

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