8w and lots of things on my mind

It’s been a tough day.. I’m exactly 8 weeks pregnant today, and that’s how far along I was when I miscarried in July. I’m trying not to worry about this pregnancy- but that’s all I do! When I found out I was pregnant I told myself I’d be fine once I reached that point and everything was ‘normal’. Now I’m here, and today I woke up with stomach pain (not cramps but just some bowel movements) and I don’t know it just reminded me of what I went through before.

I’ve been having really bad morning sickness and nausea (which I remind myself should be a good thing) but it’s just putting me down. I’m sure it’s the hormones but I’m just so sad and exhausted and lonely.

Oh and I’ve put off getting an ultrasound because I’m terrified of bad news. (Last ultrasound was when the doctor said I miscarried.)

I know this post is kinda all over the place, would appreciate any words of support or just to know I’m not alone.