Well we conceived him when we were living back in Houston ( feb 2017) we were broke at the time but things started to pick up again until Harvey hit ( yes the huracan ) my bf and I lost ours cars and the place we lived in, so we moved in with his mom who btw wasn’t in the best position either he could find a job due to the mobile home was away from everything and his moms car was old and barely working... my parents lended us some money to get a car so I’d make it to the doctors appointment and stuff long story short my baby was born and with help of family we got all the baby stuff we needed, after 2 months we got evicted and ended up living in hotels until we got a efficiency in Austin near were my bf works... this place is expensive for what it is! But we are barley making it, so that means any kind of emergencies take a lot from us... like 3 weeks ago another car hit us from behind and their insurance payed for the damage but it didn’t payed for the insurance for the rental car we were given... which left us short in money literally we only payed for the rent and that was it... I had to ask for groceries money and even then we’re missing things... on top of that my bfs grandpa passed away and the little family he has here traveled to attend the funeral which will be next week the same day my baby turns one... my family can’t come due to the costs of the plane tickets so it will be only my baby, his dad and me..not to mention I can’t even buy him a cake... I feel like the worst mom... my baby deserves better and I can’t give it to him is too expensive for some of us, life’s been hell since Harvey :( it’s depressive seeing other moms throwing parties while I can’t even afford a small bday cake :(

I’m sorry I’m just ranting cause I need it to let it out