Huge DILEMMA....

So I’m conflicted in my emotions. I liked this guy I was speaking to for about 3 months. We met online and made plans to see each other but I never fell through because of the distance. Neither of us were willing to meet each other half way so I decided it was best to not speak anymore. So haven’t heard from him and I miss him a lot. Now another guy from my past came back into the picture this is someone I never had real feelings for but thought maybe to give him a chance because I know he’ll treat me right. Still somehow I can’t seem to like the guy. He has not one but two kids now and I don’t want to be part of it which I have told him and he made me feel guilty for not wanting to. At this point I’m ready to stay alone because I’m not getting the guy I want and the last thing I want to do is lead anyone on. What should I do?!