EXTREMELY KINKY

So I am really a wild soul packed into a awesome mom and house wife. I have been with my SO for 6 years and we have explored ALOT but I feel like I’m into a lot of crazy stuff that he would completely be against. I’ve eaten his ass, he eats mine, anal, oral, choking, spanking, double penetration, master-bating in front of each other. The list is endless. But I’m scared to show my dark, really nasty side of me. Like prolapse anal, fisting, extreme bondage, gang bangs, peeing on each other, ass to mouth, ass to vagina (mostly scared of these for bacterial issues). I know I probably sound disgusting but I need someone to give me advice please! What should I do?!