I don’t know what to do desperate?

I feel like just throwing myself to the floor to not keep on with this and sometimes o get exited looking at baby clothes I love with my fiancé does anyone know of any natural remedies to cause a miscarriage he wants me to keep it I turned 3 monthes today I’m so upset I don’t want to have it because I’m 19 years old he’s 23 because if we have this we won’t even be able to kiss each other because we will have a baby crying in the middle of the night or go out to eat without the baby crying but he is really exited😪😪😓😓😓 everyday that passes I fee like I’m going to go crazy figuring out what to do I been thinking of buying misoprostol and telling him it’s a miscarriage I’m living with him and his mom right now