Baby #3 was a no go

I know I shouldn’t be sad because there’s women who don’t get to experience pregnancy at all, but this sucks so bad.

I had light pink spotting on Wednesday morning followed by really bad lower backache that same night. I went to the ER & they said my baby was measuring 3 weeks behind basically (6 weeks when i should have been 9). The tech was having a hard time finding a heartbeat at all, but i think they tried to be nice & told me to stay put because it could go either way.

When i left there i was hopeful. But then i started thinking about the time difference & i knew it wasn’t going to work out. Sure enough, right now I am bleeding & my back pain is intense. 2nd miscarriage in a row this yr :(