Whos with me?

I feel like ttc after my miscarriage in January has made me bitter, somewhat crazy, and borderline depressed. The constant peeing on opks and pregnancy tests month after month just to be let down.. the feelings of bitterness everytime someone else announces they are pregnant even though youre happy for them... the staring at lines until you can't see straight anymore just waiting for a second one that's not coming.. I don't like this person im becoming, I don't like what I'm feeling. After af shows up on Thursday, I'm taking a "break". No opks, no glow tracking, no timing out having sex with my husband. I'm going to take time to relax, maybe get a massage, enjoy intimate time with my husband just because, and wait for af to show. And maybe just maybe she won't.