I'm just tired

I had an appointment to see the doctor today to start clomid for the second time. Last night my boyfriend said "you don't want to wait?" ("HELL NO I DONT WANT TO WAIT") is what I wanted to say, but his reason was valid. We live in an apartment and I said months ago I don't want to have a baby here. He said after the new year we will look for a house and then work on our new baby. I agreed. I think I'm making impulse decisions, which probably isn't smart with another little persons life. I'm just so ready and so impatient.