A big oof

So there’s this guy. We were a “thing” once for like 3 weeks back in February, and since his interest has been on/off. He’s coming to visit me this weekend and he’ll be staying at mine. I know I should drop him because I deserve someone’s full attention, but I just can’t help it— every time he says something or shows up and I fall back into it. I have this stupid feeling that he’s “the one.” He strings me along and I’m infatuated, but it doesn’t stop me from having sex with or having crushes on other people. He’s like my “eventually.” He knows me in ways nobody else does. But I don’t know how much longer I can fight for his attention if he’s not sure he wants to give it.