Gender disappointment

I just want to start off by saying that I’m incredibly grateful to have two boys and be pregnant for the third time around. I pray that this baby is healthy regardless of its gender. My boys are exciting and incredibly funny, but part of me, as a girl myself, feels like I might be upset once I find out I’m having another boy. I know I don’t want anymore children after this one... but I thought I would be fine but I don’t really think I am. My husbands side is filled with boys. 17 grandchildren and only 2 are girls. I’m waiting to find out the gender of the third baby because I don’t want to be upset. How did you guys deal with gender disappointment?

I know moms who have both, do not understand this whatsoever