Advice

I had a miscarriage September 28th, I was only 3 weeks along. Well, I got pregnant right away I didn’t think I would get pregnant to be honest.. we were very depressed we weren’t thinking about condoms etc I didn’t think it would happen, but I guess you’re very fertile after a miscarriage which I didn’t know. So, he wouldn’t talk to me about his feelings he kept them bottled up inside. Well, I went to planned parenthood I had an appointment to get on birth control we weren’t emotionally ready.. they called my name right away which was weird I didn’t think anything of it. Well, she told me they are denying me the birth control cause it came out POSITIVE. I was shocked I was like shaking, and scared.. I asked her if the line came up right away she said yeah. Well, I didn’t want to tell my boyfriend that day but he knew something was up.. he went into my purse and saw the paperwork confirming I was pregnant. He was mad, and wouldn’t talk to me at all day. I was taking care of our 17 month old daughter while he was sleeping and being stressed. He said he wanted me to get an abortion, but I don’t after two miscarriages, I think they are a blessing honestly.. so, he came around to the idea. He wanted to name the name and I was happy, and one day before work he kissed our daughter and then my stomach.. I’m currently 9 weeks, and whenever I talk to him about my pregnancy he doesn’t say anything or just ignore it.. it makes me feel like he doesn’t want the baby at all.. I don’t know if it’s because I’m sad and it’s my hormones, but it makes me feel sad.. I’m further along in my pregnancy too. My other two pregnancies ended at 5 weeks and the other at 3.. he was heartbroken, and so was I.. but I don’t know what to do.. I don’t even tell him when I have appointments because he doesn’t seem to care or anything. My next appointment we would be hearing the heartbeat, but he doesn’t seem bothered him not coming.. I feel like I’m alone in this pregnancy like I was with my daughter...

Please no judging..