To leave or not to leave...

I am asking you ladies to please be kind with your comments. I'm having a very hard time lately and don't meed any more negativity.

Thank you.

My boyfriend and I have been together for a little over 2 years and we have an (almost)11 month old son. We got pregnant on accident 9 months in to our relationship and while it was unplanned i couldnt ve happier about my baby boy. But let me go back a little.

We moved to Florida together after just 6 months of dating. I had been in a long term relationship(7 years) before that and i knew that time wasnt a huge problem for me. I didnt care. If it didnt work it didnt work. Thats life. I wasnt going to not do something exciting and scary just because i didn't want to risk us breaking up in another state. So we moved to florida from ohio, mainly because my mom's friend said she would have a job for him when we got there and i already had a job lined up. Where we were before he couldnt find a job and he wasnt really motivated to get one. So we moved because he had 3 other kids he wanted to start being able to buy things for and support.

Yes. Him not supporting his other kids at the tine should have been a huge red flag but i was blind in love and he was very convincing that he wanted to do and be better.

So we moved to florida and ever since that move he has been progressively treating me worse and worse. To the point some of what he does would be called abuse. He has gotten jobs and kept them and he let me stay home to be a stay at home mom while he was here. But he uses that change as an excuse. He says he's already changed a lot and i just keep wanting more and more because i tell him i cant keep being with someone who lies, manipulates, and is mentally and emotionally abusive. Its not good for me and i dont want myy son growing up around that. Well for the last gew months(since the 4th of july) hes been back in Ohio because we had nowhere to live while we're waiting on a house. Im staying with my mom in Florida. He has fasnily here too, but isnt aloud to stay there because having him there is too stressful for his family because he doesnt help out and causes fights with his aunt.

And he has changed a lot and some of the ways he treats me improves SOMETIMES. The only reasons ive stayed with him so long is because

1. I want to give my son a chance to grow up with the man i know he could be if he tried(ive seen it)..not have to grow up wondering why he can only see his daddy once a month or every few months because he lives in another state.

2. Ryan does have Borderline Personality Disorser. Which causes ALOT of what he does and the way he acts. Some of it is just him being an ass but most of it is because of his mental illness. So ive fought through it because most people dont understand what its like. I do. I have schizoaffective disorder: bipolar type. I get it. And he swears once he can afford health insurance he'll see a doctor and get better.

But like i said he's been in ohio for a littlw while and were fighting almost constantly now.

I told him last night that I am thinking about leaving because i dont know if i can keep choosing to be subject to his abuse when he wont even try to change it. Even when he promises to he doesnt. I told him its not good for me or the baby and its left me extremely unhappy. And he replied with a bunch of texts about hinself and how I've screwed up and just...didnt even seem like he really even read what i said to him. Just tried to make it all about himself instead of listening to what i need from him....

So idk..i think i might be leaving him. And im not really sure why im even posting this. I think i just needed to tell someone and i dont really have any friends to talk to here.