What do I do?

My boyfriend and I were incredibly serious. We spoke about things like marriage and kids and hell, even life policies!

I felt myself working towards being ready for a commitment like marriage and I was content with where we were headed as well as who we were becoming together.

Abruptly, he decided to pull the breaks and end our relationship and cut every single tie with me because we weren’t going to work out, apparently.

I know I need to process and grieve losing him but I still can’t shake this absolute readiness for marriage. I have even considered signing up for those sites where people are super straightforward about meeting a potential husband.

If there’s anyone out there with tips to completely let go of him as well as this strange commitment fever. Please help me.

I think I’m holding out and holding onto the fact that he might come back but I don’t think he will. At all.

And I feel like I’ve lost a part of myself.

So yes, I have two EXHAUSTING dilemmas and need help