Im feeling completely out of control of my body

Shaunita

Long rant lol Idk if it my hormones or what but the last few weeks I’ve felt completely out of control. And today one of my closest friends just lost it on me. Now our relationship has not been the same since her last toxic relationship where she basically let her ex control the dynamics of her life and friendships, but she was upset about the way I responded and have responded about her school schedule and told her she was using way to many excuses for not dating, the gym, etc but she would always complain about wanting a real relationship and how her body was not the way she wanted it to be etc. Well she decides today to compare her “ crazy”school schedule to my pregnancy and how she needs the same common courtesy of not going to the gym, etc. as I want about my fatigue, etc. I don’t know what happened but she triggered me badly . like that was just the tipping scale of all of my feelings. I like to stay positive and I don’t try to complain or talk about all of my bodily loveliness or how I’m feeling all the time but I was so hurt and upset that she said that. I am the girl that no joke worked 40 plus hours running a homeless shelter, balanced hanging out with my friends, the gym, splitting drive time to see my BF and getting sometimes between two-6 hours of sleep for about 6 months straight in order to make it all work. Might I add, I fucking succeeded at it all! So I have been in crazy, I ran crazy and I kept a smile on my face and listened to everyone from my staff, to clients to my friends woes day in and day out for 3.5 years. FYI social work is like dog years lol....What I didn’t expect was to feel like my entire being had been taken hostage and that this thing the size of a mango (currently) would suck the life out me and flip my entire being upside down . I used to work out, have sex at least once a day if not 2-3 days with my fiancé, and thanks to my lack of sex drive and consistent yeast infection here or UTI there, well I feel bad for him lol Oh the list goes on: I hate the smell of coffee now, I can’t eat raw fish and god I love sushi’, my sleep is all over the place, I have headaches randomly now, my sinuses don’t know what to do with themselves and last but definitely not least I am a swinging pendulum on how I feel daily. I here this can be normal but I am over it all lol In case anyone is feeling crazy like me about now, your not alone hahahaha

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