Ever since I got pregnant it’s like a light switch flipped in my brain. Nothing is fun anymore, nothing seems to make me happy. I’m sad most of the time and feel terrible about it. Isn’t this supposed to be that happy time where you glow? The physical symptoms (nausea, fatigue, gut problems) aside I just feel like a mess. My husband and I are fighting all the time, just about daily or every other day which is even worse since we’ve only been married a month (side note: didn’t get married because we were pregnant.) I’m feeling like a bad wife and a bad friend to him. I would rather lay on the couch or play on my phone than actually interact with the world.

This is not who I am! In general I’ve always been kind of a homebody but this extra lack of caring and overall feeling of emptiness makes me feel like there is something wrong with me, like the wires in my head are crossed. I feel so incredibly lonely sometimes and I’m just at a loss.

This is not me.

I have no reason to be crying but I am, and usually over the dumbest things or over situations of my own creation (see fighting with the husband)

I feel guilty for being a bad wife to him. And I feel guilty because I feel like I’m not the perfect mom to be and as if I’m already doing this all wrong.

I know this was long. But I really needed to get it out. I would appreciate anything that anyone has to offer.

Thank you.