All those feels!!!!

After our first baby I have struggled mentally with wanting and not wanting another child. I have been so selfish and honestly I wasn’t and still am not ready for another baby... he has been bugging me because I know he wants another one! So again when he mentions another baby I ask him why? I ask if it’s because he wants a boy. And very sad like he goes “ no it’s because she can’t be alone. We can’t leave her all by herself” I stared at him. That was by far the sweetest thing he’s really ever said. And I’ve been mean about another baby but he wasn’t being selfish he was thinking of our daughter one day not having us. And dangit girls I wanted to yell “put a baby in me NOW” but then I remembered they have tantrums and cry and I need our first one to stop that crap before I let him talk me into growing another! But Jesus my ovaries are now screaming! 😍😍😍