I woke up crying today

It's been 6 weeks since we split but this morning I just starting thinking about stuff again. Why wasn't I enough for you? I never even so much as glanced at another guy because I adored you, you were the only one I wanted, the only one I thought about all the time, I couldn't even consider entertaining another guy not with the way I felt about you. But why couldn't you feel the same? Why couldn't I have been the only girl you wanted, the only one you thought about instead of entertaining these other girls? It hurts to think about it all again and I can't help it. I dunno was it because I didn't give my virginity to you? After that weekend I spent at yours it was like you wanted to have sex even tho you kept saying "only when you're ready" and "I respect you to wait". But now that I think about it maybe you got bored of waiting. I'm sorry I couldn't give you the one thing I didn't feel comfortable giving, maybe if I wasn't a virgin you would've stuck around. But there you go 😓