Baby‘s First Christmas 💔

After we lost our son I knew that Christmas this year would be hard. If it weren’t for our other two kids, we wouldn’t be celebrating at all. But right now, all the “Baby’s first Christmas” posts by all the happy parents are just killing me. And I get it, I really do. I’ve been the proud Momma, showing off my babies under the tree and all those cute outfits, etc. But right now, all I can think of is this:

This is what Baby’s First Christmas looks like for us. And while so many are getting ready for Christmas dinner and caring for their little ones, happy to be around family, I’m trying to hide from all the relatives and am getting ready to put another candle on my son’s grave. It’s the least I can give him this holiday 😢💔