Depression

Im so depressed on a day where you should be happy and with family but because my family loves to mental abuse me I'm so depression wishing I was dead because they know how much it hurts being around my step dad who abused me mentally physically and molest me I wish I have another place to live but because housing here is always full can't find one and I rather me being depressed than my kids homeless. I miss you dad so much please give me the strength to fight through this depression I don't want to kill my self like you even tho I know now why you did it I want to be there for my kids so they don't have to live what I did.