My first baby was due on Christmas

I lost my first baby this April at 5w6d. It was a short time together but it affected me more than I ever realized.

And while I’m 34 weeks with my rainbow, there was a cloud of sadness over me yesterday. On a day that should’ve been happy for multiple reasons, I wanted to cry all day. I can’t describe the feeling to anyone.

I know that I wouldn’t have this little girl kicking inside me without that first angel baby but that doesn’t fix it.

I didn’t tell anyone all day long. and maybe next Christmas will be easier. But for now...it feels like I lost him/her yesterday.

34 weeks with my little girl