I just need to talk...

My bf has bipolar, and his family n I think he might be in hypomania episode. He has been looking therapist and psychiatrist.and we tried to talk to him and the professionals abt his situation. But my bf thinks he is perfectly fine, being mad at us when we mentioned that. However, we noticed that he tries to be very calmed and fine in front of professionals from past experience. (However, we do think he does it unconsciously)

It has been so hard to be around him for the past month. he is being very irritable, wants to stay out way after midnight at least 3-4 times a week. And he is talking to ppl online constantly. So we had huge fight, and we broke up abt 2 weeks ago. But I have to stay at his place until this weekend, and I still tried to make it work, cuz we think his behaviors are caused by his illness.

He went to strip club couple times after we started to fight a little bit while, and he met a girl he was texting to a lot privately. I knew there was something wrong, and I tried to be nice and asked him if he met someone he is interested in or what? He lied and hide the fact he was talking to the stripper. Honestly, now we are kinda on break, according to him, so I wish he can be honest with me so that I can be mentally prepared and move on. But he kept telling me he just need some time and space, and I’m so special to him, just we can’t be tgt at this moment. Hopefully there is chance for us to work it out.

Anyway, I knew I shouldn’t do that, but I snooped his phone, he basically told his friend that I’m annoying (this friend is another dramatic issues), and like he can’t wait until I go back to my home. And he texted the stripper like, “you are so special to me, and my life will be a mess if I didn’t have you in it.” (He met her after we broke up). And being sweet talk to her all the time. “ I already love you as friend.”

I cant describe how devastated when I saw those, I kept the evidence. And wanted to confront him, but have no idea how.

He thinks I caused the problems in our relationship, and he did nothing wrong before we broke up, now he can do whatever he wants. It’s me need to work on myself as a better person.

Even tho I know it’s his illness makes him like this, but everything is so hard and hurtful.

I just need to talk to make myself better, and be good for the next three days.

We were planning to have relaxing and hot tub tonight tgt, but I saw him sending his friend text, “ she is being annoying, i might ditch her. See you tonight.” I was like I don’t even know what is true and what is not. I felt absolutely bad right now.