I can’t anymore

I hate everything. I hate how my family mistreats me, how I have a feeling that my boyfriend might be cheating. I’m tired of going to school and not knowing what I want to do with my life. I’m just tired of everything. I just want to disappear. I don’t have enough money got just leave or buy a car. I just wish I wasn’t born. I hate everything about myself why wouldn’t other people? I feel only depressed and lonely than ever...I just don’t know what to do anymore.