Throwing in the towel

Almost 42 trying now for 3 years. 2 miscarriages. 2 failed medicated iui’s. The odds are against me. Feeling sorry for myself. Nothing makes this feel better. Period always regular. All signs and symptoms of healthy period. Tubes good. Ovaries good. . Although not abundant, there are follicles every month. Lots of intimacy straight every other day. Relaxed. Hopeful. Then period shows up. I’m racing against the clock. Today is my husband’s bday and only one line and period cramps from hell. Pissed. Depressed. Frustrated. Everywhere I look I see pregnant women. Tv commercials are all diaper commercials. It taunts me. When do we give up for good ? I have tried acupuncture Chinese medicine vacation iui Ivf