Miscarriage..will I feel normal again

I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks... I started having symptoms at 3.5 weeks right when i found out

..this was a planned pregnancy...went from nausea all day, sore breasts, no sleep, tired all the time, peeing like crazy, mood swings..telling everyone at 8 weeks imcluding my 4y old to the next day having bleeding and making an appt...having a ultrasound seeing a little baby up there feeling so happy and excited to having the doctor walk in to tell me there's no heart beat...why why me why with my 4y old with me..i did everything right...felt like i was on cloud nine just to have it all torn from under me. I had to have a d and c...had no more symptoms had to wait 5 days before they could fit me in..had to go to work and tell everyone..my family my friends...couldn't grieve the lose yet because i still had my poor baby dead inside of me scheduled to be taken from me...why...i get it but i dont. My husband was great for the 1st week and then nothing..acts like nothing happenend wants sex i don't...i would have been 13w right now...i have no sex drive...he wants to try again right away im not sure if i even want another one now and i always wanted two before. I feel so angry all the time or i just start crying he doesn't get it tells me to talk to him then just starts a fight with me or tells me i need to move on...like its not that easy...im planning my 7m prego sister's baby shower for next month..i want to be happy for her but its so hard to not feel jealous...hers was an accident mine was planned...then at xmas we are at my husbands side and his whole family knows okay and his cousin decides to tell us she's prego with their 3rd and it was and accident and laugh about it...like i wanted this baby so bad and they dont and get to have one..why?..i started feeling angry tonight while we were watching a movie and he goes what's wrong now..i said nothing i just feel angry sometimes it just comes on i cant help it..he goes well talk to me about this stuff so then i start crying because since he's been home from work he's been wanting sex..so im crying and i tell him i have no sex drive... i don't tell him i dont even want to be touched anymore...i then tell him i don't know if i want anymore kids that i think im done and gets mad...says so i dont get a say..i got so mad i went to sleep on the couch...he didnt even come after me..do u ever feel normal again after a miscarriage..how long does it take? Am i the only one who feels this way...have no sex drive..not want to be touched? Feel angry and jealous and then feel guilty about it? And feel so alone....my family doeant get it...its never happened to them before they say it was meant to be..u will be fine..just try again..and the real kicker i don't get why ur still so upset about u werent even that far along...just why. My daughter has been really effected by it which makes it worse..blamed herself for a while then cried shed never get a sibling..ask if we were mad her so thats why i lost the baby..she's finally.stopped mentioning it after 5 weeks...this sucks...sorry this is so long...i just need to not feel so alone in this..that others feel or felt this way

..im scared this is ruining my marriage and i don't have the energy to work on it right now...i only have enough for my daughter, work, the house and animals....im scared.my husband will go cheat and it makes me pull away from him even more even though it should be the opposite...why me.