Feeling frustrated

I had a chemical pregnancy in September. I have never been so happy when I saw the positive result, and never so sad to watch it fade away. We have been TTC since June and I really thought we were going to get a BFP for Christmas... every social media post with another announcement makes me so jealous. Jealousy is so ugly and I feel guilty for being so jealous. Only my fiancé and I know about the C.P. I hope the new year brings a baby. I’m trying to relax and see all of the wonderful blessings we have in our life already. I just want to be a mom 😥