My life

I just turned 18 and this has by far been the worst year of my life, and it’s making me dread 2019.

I’d always been suspicious of my mom cheating on my dad but I had no reason to think it was true other than my gut. Well my gut was right.

Mom has been cheating on dad for 2 years give or take a few months. And it’s been with the same guy. Mom ruined his marriage and he is ruining my parents marriage.

Before my feeling was confirmed my grandpa had a heart attack on Halloween, then a couple days later I found out for sure my mom was cheating. That’s when they just stopped caring about hiding their fights and arguments. My dad cries every time I hug his neck because I’m the only one that will. Mum hasn’t touched him since April.

Then a day before thanksgiving dad had a stroke. Well while he was in the hospital or right after he got home mum picked a fight Bc dad talked to someone about everything going on.

I can hear them arguing late at night and early in the morning as well and it’ll wake me up and I’ll just lay in bed and cry. I try to stay out of the house as much as I can like my brother who I barely ever see now because he stays out of the house.

On Christmas eve I did something stupid. I told dad I saw mom on the pos’s Instagram. Well he blew up finally and told her to get out of his house, he took her phone and car (she doesn’t work) and dad left for a bit while mom packed. My brother and I were both home at the time and we just stood there crying. It’s hard to see your 19 year old brother try not to cry and comfort you instead.

Dad came storming in the house because he went through her phone. She had plans to leave my dad after I graduate this year and as soon as the house was paid off she’d go be with him.

Dad screamed at her and said some nasty stuff and left. He came back calmed down and gave her the phone and car back and said she could stay in the house until they sat down and talked about what was going to happen next whether that be divorce or not.

Now since I don’t have my own place and I’m leaving for uni in August their both asking me who I’m going to live with. Dad asked me if after I graduate form uni I live with him so he’s not alone. Mom asked me if I’d pick dad over her.

I just can’t take it anymore.