Confused

Not sure if it’s just me being emotional....

I’ve been telling my husband that I need some US time for over 4 months, we have 6 kids told (3 mines 3 his ) so we’re never alone. Well he keeps saying ok but never put forth any actions. I just got home from work and noticed him n his kids are dressed getting ready to go out to eat ( didn’t even invite me (my kids are out of town)) after he saw my feelings was hurt and I had tears in my eyes he asked me to go. At 1st I said yes but then I declined cause I felt unwanted. Now I’m sitting here crying my eyes out... Am I being ridiculous??? I am currently in my ttw...