Nervous

So I came here to vent , so in a week I’m getting surgery. To see my Fallopian tubes. Also to see if I can have a baby and I’m terrified . I had a miscarriage in June that I haven’t got over and still to this day think about what he or she would be like when born in just a few week as to what my due date would be. I was doing good and then everyone who was pregnant started having baby’s and friends and I’m jealous. My fiancé feels the same way.. I say (insert name here) is having a baby and he doesn’t want to talk about it. I just hope this surgery goes well and by 2020 I can become a mommy .